DEATH of a POOR HAJI

Besmehi Taala
Salam
Just wanted to announce that HAJI is DEAD!
Someone very close to me, in an effort to limit my FREEDOM OF EXPRESSION, criticized me about writing about DEATH all the time. It took me a long time to respond to the request to stop writing about this subject, and I finally figured out I will be DEAD without enjoying my NATURAL GOD GIVEN RIGHT to EXPRESS MYSELF FREELY. Now that I have convinced myself to obey the order of not talking about DEATH, I officially announce that I AM DEAD or more precisely POOR HAJI is DEAD!

of course for now!

I also did write this post to check if we can still post our views in the blog. This is because I heard from some of our hamrahs that it is not possible to do so!

baharnarenj excites

in this days i am fullof excitemennt because tommmoro go to mashhad when i come back enshaALALLAH writing more and more i see other webloge,i be gheyrati we weblog very khalvat i try (with help of God )shologhesh konam of course with good and nice maters.

leila unlearns

there are more memories of a journey had we together... i enjoyed of beuties nature in that place.green trees and high mountain lived incomparble nature shomal for me...the thing was more than of all ffuunn for me in jajrod friandly between friends.i hope than can learn and un-learning of hamrahan and i could knowing my self better.

Amusements in our life like as vanilla, if become more
than needed; our life's Cake became destroyed.

Somayyeh

منزه است آفریدگار روشنی

Salaam
These days are so beautiful because we had a good meeting and all the faces is in our mind…
Suzi ! I need your braveness to speak about my new world that I’m walking on , …
The wide , attractive and beautiful world .
these days I think about SHENAKHT many many times .
I make the rope of friendship with ابوسعید ابوالخیر for first time, and next I find the world of بایزید and then I know ابوالحسن خرقانی
at night I had so beautiful experience with these three seas« Bayazid , Aboosaeed, Kharaghani ».
may be because the nights are full of silent and mystery…and…
Yes , Suzi I need your brave to say I choose nights because the nights are too dark .may be you get surprise the concept of dark nights for our world have been changed!
Our children are afraid of darkness of the night! And we forgot the pure of nights …
In فیه مافیه you read a nice point about darkness of night …
Molavi said: every things at night become hidden except Ria! You know, Ria get obvious at night!…

This point shows only a little about deepness of nights . I find my self so closer to deep point of life and I smell یاسمین طلب at nights …
Somayyeh ! you know in moonlight all the things get changed…you can hear all of voices better. you can hear your lower whispering even as a loudest voice...
you can listen to your pain at nights , Bahar narenj.
When you open دفتر روشنایی at night you can see the Roshani …and you don’t believe any other Roshanayi( like sunshine or other …)for you the concept of Roshani get changed in darkness. and become so meaningful.

muniature changes

we are constantly changing... i am afraid i might write something now and it may not be the same a couple minutes later!

زین جا که منم تا که بدآنجا که منم...!

After some week , Salaam my dear friends …Now I am in holiday and I’ve a lot to say …in these days I read my dear “ فیه ما فیه” and I find many deep and strong RAZ in it.I astonish when I see them in myself ! and I feel very near to them.I write done one of these deep point:

گفت : پیلی را آوردند بر سر چشمه ای که آب خورد.خود را در آب می دید و می رمید! او می پنداشت که از دیگری می رمد.. .همه ی اخلاق بد از ظلم و کین و حسد و کبر و بی رحمی چون در "توست" نمی رنجی ، چون آنرا در دیگری می بینی ، می رمی و می رنجی

. This view of closeness with this bad things , made me so ashamed of myself .And remind me one of Attar’s robaee he said:

هر روز حجاب بیقراران بیش است
زان درد من از قطره ی باران بیش است
زینجا که منم تا که بدانجا که منم
دو کوَن چه باشد که هزاران بیش است

let's think!

hours riding

OH,i am so busy i have so many classes.
but i love all of them.my favorite is hours riding actually i like horses more than the ride.we are 4 people in one class and each one has a hours.mines is white and in some parts black,and hes name is (badpa).
its great every day i want to go there but the classes are just 2 days in a week. well yesterdays i had the class and every part of me hurts.well that's all.

eternity

I think people die but they die only physically and they live with their mind and their results of acts in the world.
They never go.
We can't see them with eyes but they exist.
When teachers help to get human, they live in their students.
When a scientist does a project or invents he or she lives to the end of the world and when a poet say a poem lives with that like an artist lives with his or her artworks.
It is a way that people never forget them and they live in people's mind.

2:186 "When My servants ask thee concerning Me, I am indeed close (to them): I listen to the prayer of every suppliant when he calleth on Me: Let them also, with a will, Listen to My call, and believe in Me: That they may walk in the right way."

Wa alaikom Al-Salam!

Dear All ESPECIALLY YOU!!
Yes that's right don't look behind you, you've guessed it I'm talking to you!

There was a very popular show on TV a little while back and it contributed a portion of the show to a charity fund for Africans and especially African children. One of the advertisements that seemed surprising to me and might also sound surprising to you was short clips of famous and [lovable!] celebrities talking about how many funerals they have attended in their lifetime. Like David Bechahm saying he attended one or two, actors saying they attended one, the number of funerals they had attended would never go over three times. Then in the end of the clip they showed an African man who says I have attended 428 funerals (I cant remember the exact number but it was something around 400 i think)! This was to show that nobody dies in "developed" countries but in Africa people keep dying! So feel sorry for them and pay up!

Now can you even count how many funerals you have attended in your life time?! I know I went to two funerals and was going to go to two more during my three week visit to Iran! Not to mention that we go to 3-4 ceremonies per dead person!

Regardless of how you're going to argue about charities being good, and others arguing that the same companies and countries which broadcast these shows are the same people who've contributed in these poor people being subjected to death, I wanted to look at it from a different point of view. It seems that the celebrities that so many people in the world love to be, and look up to have no clue about death! They either don't see the people dying around them or do not see at all! All of us including the ones who refuse to read this will die someday! Some will die sooner than others and in my opinion our memories will not do much good for us. As I'm writing this I read that Ayatollah Fadhel passed away, (khoda rahmateshoon kone inshallah)...

I guess the memories that will cause people to pray for us will be of some benefit but in general why should we worry about how people would remember us as? I'm not saying we shouldn't care, but I don't think we should worry about it.

When we want to go to Mashhad and it says Esfahan 48 kilometers we can do one of these things:

1. We can ignore the fact that we're supposed to go to Mashhad and continue with going to Esfahan INSISTING that we're going the right path regardless of all the signs and all the other people telling us we're going the wrong way and the information desk giving us the map!! KNOWING we will be doomed!!

31:7 When Our Signs are rehearsed to such a one, he turns away in arrogance, as if he heard them not, as if there were deafness in both his ears: announce to him a grievous Penalty.

2. Turn back, go back to the junction you missed and make up for the loss and go back towards Mashhad.

3. Go to Esfahan and hope you can catch a plane on time and get to Mashhad faster!

I'm sure a lot of you are thinking of option number 3! much easier ha?! We'll just have our fun and in the end we'll catch the plane to the promised land! From what I have seen the best way is never the easiest one! And remember Mashhad has the best food in Iran!

TURN BACK NOW! ONCE YOU DO, EVEN IF YOU CRASH ALONG THE WAY THERE WILL BE A WHOLE FLEET OF PLANES, CHOPPERS AND ANGELS TO TAKE YOU TO WHERE YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO...

39:53 Say: "O my Servants who have transgressed against their souls! Despair not of the Mercy of Allah. for Allah forgives all sins: for He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.

Wassalam...

new life

ohh,the summer is here durring my exames i imaganed summers hand and after my every exam the hand was closer.and now its here summers here i am bigining a new life a great fun life, but God i have planes for my self:i toke 7 classes and i have planes with my cosens, friends,family,and of course going to diffrent places....
well i dont know about you bi iam happy.:O

BLACK HOLE

Besmehi Taala
Dear All, specially Mahdieh
My first degree was physics and I have a B. S degree from Shiraz university. I realy love and loved physics but I have one little problem with it too! I don't understand lots of it. Now what Stephen Hokins talk about or what Einstin was talking about are really beyond my mental capacity to understand, but I do understand one thing and this is what I was trying to picture talking about RUNNIG and DEATH. I as all of you beleive that this is just one part of our life that some of us, specially me are spending it carelessly. And this is what I call RUNNING WITH MY HEAD DOWN. Actually I beleive in this life we are getting ready for our real life. But what worries me and unfortunately I am not doing much about it, even though I am certain I am RUNNING, but this time RUNNING OUT OF TIME! is that I have not done much to offer when I enter the other world. And somehow I am not still doing anything that changes this. I feel I am like an overweight person that even though he knows he has a problem, but still cannot keep himself from eating fatty stuff. And this is what I meant by just pause a frame of my life and ask myself is this what I wanted from my life!
More on this later inshallah.
By the way Stephen Hokins will be in Iran soon. He is invited to come to Iran by فیزیک نظری and his trip is supported by CISSC. In case you wonder what CISSC stands for. I just give you a hint it stands for the office I work for!!!

Does our life have Black holes?

Salam to all hamrahS and many thanks for sharing your thoughts and feeling,
Two days ago, I watched a film about Stefan Hawking, his theories and his struggles… as the film told, his main challenging theory is about Black Holes – سیاه چاله ها .Years ago he has published an article in which he described how we live in a world full of creatures; named Black Holes and clamed these horrible creatures swallow everything including objects, energies and so INFORMATION! This film showed how this theory started a discussion in science world… scientists was worried if really the information will disappear some day? May they lost for ever?
Seeing discusses in the film, I couldn’t understand why all of these are for? Why scientists are so anxious about the information in a time no one of human being exists?
And today, reading your writings in Alvand kooh and Damavand about death, I wondered by some questions…
Are we really what information people have about us? What is real information?
I think what we remember by hearing ones name isn’t necessarily what that person has done for the world even what s/he really has done to our own life. I think most of the times we can’t really realize or analyze what people have done to use, weather it is good or bad. So, is the information people can give about us what whole we are?
We do not die when we physically go…We do not die even when we disappear from people’s words and people’s mind… we live till our effects live… and I think our effects will live forever in the reality of the world…
everything we do effects on somebody or something and it transform in many other forms but remains…
Haji, you shouldn’t be worry if for example, i, am not able to tell or explain what I achieve from your existence, I think it’s enough to believe what you and 100zaban have gifted me, everyday brings new blossoms to world- and this believe comes from the سکینه you feel deep in your heart when are acting along with truth.
As miniature nicely said and baharnarenj beautifully pictured, people can even to light up a NOOR in the world life or bring darkness… depends on what they have in their mind and heart…
So as far as world lives, we live with all we have been… until the day, all eyes open and see the truth which we were blind to see-except a few of us
Maybe, this is the world hawking has told about in his new theory- the theory that destroyed his last mentioned one; the world without Black Holes!

i fill like the are taking over the blog.
i fell like the comments are more than the posts. but then again there is no comment.ahhh
well i just wanted to tell you my feeling about the comments.
well isn't it a nice summer well not for me because i am sick its my exams and....
well that's it bye

STILL RUNNING

Besmehi Taala
Dear all, specially miniature, passion and baharnarenj, salamalykom va rahmatollahIt all started from a short phone call at around 9:00 pm on Saturday. My friend’s 13 year old son called me and said, while laughing!, Amo Mohammad’s father died this morning. A day before I heard my friend’s father was severely ill and was hospitalized on Friday night and I meant to call my friend and ask about his father’s condition, but I forgot! Forgetting things have become part of my life now! Any way we went to his father’s house that night and later on Sunday morning we went to Behesht e Zahra for his burial. I got a chance to go and pay respect to my mother (who died 28 years ago at 58, the same age as I am now) and my father (who passed away 15 years ago at age 76 or something like that). May God bless their soul. Now I am watching TV, which is showing Imam’s final days. I can hardly keep myself from crying, and I do cry. I get a very special feeling when I go to Behesht e Zahra or when I attend the ceremonies. I have even attended one of these new style ceremonies, where you don’t hear or hardly hear God’s name or a verse of Quran! I have given my views about, as miniature has rightfully called it cliché !, on some of the things happening in these ceremonies as cliché, but I am not at all trying to argue about how much comforting to the families and friends are when you hear “Alrahman”. I was saying my mother died about 28 years ago. I still remember her sitting by samovar, smoking “homa” cigarette and drinking tea, and me asking her “why do you smoke mom with your terrible lungs”. She would say hummmm while pouring tea for me and murmuring. It seemed she was singing a self made poem. I can’t ever forget a deep sadness in her eyes on her beautiful motherly round face. She was an extremely strong woman, kept all her pains within herself. She finally died young of a lot of complications caused partly by that little cigarette, and eating herself up. You are right miniature the memories stay and I can clearly picture that moment after 28 years. When I went to Behesht e Zahra it took me and my two sons about 10 minutes to find my mother’s grave!. There was only a cold stone with some cliché type of writing on it. My mother, father, grandmother, grandfather, …. Have all passed away and soon I will join them too. Now I ask myself what did I gain after all. I ran a lot in my life, as my father, mother and … did. What would my sons and grand sons and grand daughters remember when they think about me? They may say oh God we missed our father’s jokes and sense of humor. I ask myself do I want to be remembered only as someone with good sense of humor, or something more? I don’t like to RUN with my head down, but I am so used to it! Tears are running over my face while writing these. Am I the only person crying for his soon to come death?

Touching the Death Issue... Or should I say Track and Field!?

Kheili jaleb bood Haji!

I feel like you are gonna burst out in rage and you are totally fed up with cliches! But I know you've written that in complete serenity!

Anyway... Cliches Cliches Cliches... how many times a day do we get victimized by them... hmmm I wonder!

سلام
ببخشید فارسی نوشتم
نصفه شبه دیگه حوصله کم شده

on the issue of RUNNING again

سلام بر همه یاران

نمی دونم چرا باز وسوسه شدم راجع به مرگ بنویسم

شاید یک دلیلش مشاهده برگه های تسلیت چسبانده شده بر دیواره آسانسور ساختمان محل مسکونی ماست که با هشتاد خانواده دیگه

مدتهاست زندگی می کنیم. هر روز یک برگه جدید بغل برگه های قدیمی چسبانده می شه. به نظر می رسه که ملک الموت فعلاً

با توجه به وجود تعداد قابل توجه افراد واجد شرایط ساکن در این محل قصد نداره به این زودی ها محل رو ترک بکنه. حالا باید حدس زد نوبت بعدی کیه؟

یک چیزی که همیشه نظر منو توی مراسم خداحافظی با دوستان و آشنایان قدیمی جلب می کند، سوای امکان قرائت چند جمله از قرآن کريم دیدن آشنایان و دوستان قدیمی و مدتی گپ زدن با آنها و شنیدن موعظه روحانی مسجد در خصوص منزلت و مقام پدر یا مادر بسته به جنسیت خدابیامرز مسئله جملات تقریباً روتین و تکراری است که از زبان مداح یا روحانی مسجد بیان می شه

مثل این

ما امروز در اینجا جمع شده ایم تا از مادری فداکار یا پدری زحمت کش دوستدار دار اهل بیت عاشق امام حسین (ع) انسانی با وقار مردم دوست مهربان فعال ... که تمام عمرش رو صرف خدمت به پیر و چوان کودک و نوجوان و ... کرده است تقدیر و تشکر کنیم و خاطرات خوب او را بیاد بیاریم و .... مانند اینها

خوشابحال اونائی که کار خیری در زندگیشون انجام نمی دن و بفکر دیگران نیستند و قدمی برای کسی بر نمی دارند و احتمالاً زبانم لال خط و خطوط درستی هم ندارن که ملک الموت کاری به کار ایندسته از آدمها نداره

سلام
It's so interesting! For every body the first place of Hamrahane Aftab is the beautiful place in Tehran or …. For me Pasdaran and Parande nilgoon is Tajrish and …
I thought this place has a big miracle for us and that is finding a missing peace for all, like as life that it's a miracle and many BIG things that I didn't saw them. They teach us:
" پاشین دیگه صبح شده نگاه کنید‍، دیگه صبح تر از این نمیشه"
Said my cousin's boy, he is 4 years.
The big Journey started from inside to outside.

For Nebula عزیز I read in a book if you hang a leather of peacock in your room you guard from lizard for all time.

presidential race

Besmehi Taala
Dear Hamarah slamalykom va rahmatollah
I did not know the 10th presidential race has started already!